I hate you so much! But it’s me who I should hate in fact. Anyway, you’re a stupid, stupid, stupid little thing. Not to  mention useless… Seems like we have a lot in common, the two of us.

Come on! I really did’t need you! You have that special power to tear me in millions of pieces that are spreading all around. If you knew how hard it is to get myself together every time you do this… No, I don’t need you to pitty me. I deserve everything that you put me trough. I actually let you do this things to me. I’m such a stupid little person. I hate it when I discover that my head was right and my heart was wrong! I really hate it. But this always happens, I always give my heart a chance, even though I know very well she’s wrong. I wonder when I’ll stop hurting myself. There has to be something wrong with me.

You know what’s funny? In my case, the heartache is simultaneously inside and outside. I by that I mean that my heart actually aches, like that storm of feelings that invades me isn’t enough. For me a heartache is complete, turning me inside out emotionally and phisically…

I seem to always find you…You are a really big part of my life and you’re always the same. Unfortunatelly I can’t say the same thing about me. I become weaker and weaker after every single visit you pay me. I get myself together harder and harder every single time you pass by. I’m getting  more and more sad and my hope dies little by little.

So please consider when you plan on visiting me next time. You might leave nothing of me when you go away…

Amelia